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guess who watched ManlyBadassHero’s video on Mouthwashing?
This guy
She’s telling me about K-pop. Was it Jennie or Jung-kook?
I don’t remember and I don’t really get it but she’s so excited so I listen.
Next she begins to show me the dance sequences. They look complicated. And she tells me all about how she and her friends are going to dance together.
I ask how long I’m going to live for.
She says, how tf should I know.
And then she starts telling me about a girl named Marie. She hates Marie. Hates the way Marie holds herself, the way Marie chews her pencils, the way Marie laughs as if she’s been kicked in the teeth.
She hates Marie so I do too.
My hamster dies tragically as they all do. Escaped onto the road and driven over. When she finds out, she mourns.
Her cries make her body convulse, like she's giving up some part of herself. Her sobbing is so loud it rattles the braces on my teeth.
She cries over my hamster’s body for 5 days and when I bury him, she delivers a eulogy so beautiful I’m almost thankful he did die, just so I could hear her speech.
When my grandma gets cancer, I demand an answer from her. Why didn’t she tell me?
She shrugs and says everyone has their time and goes back to scrolling on tiktok.
I pass my exam with a grade so good it’s shocking for mediocre me and she congratulates me.
At my congratulatory dinner, she makes it all about herself and says our friendship was the driving force behind my good grade.
I grab her and pull her into the bathroom, where I slap her so hard there are nail marks on her cheek.
She looks in the mirror, peeved I ruined her lipgloss.
When my first boyfriend cheats on me, I cry so much in her arms that I think I’ve cried enough to fill the Atlantic sea.
She corrects me and tells me it’s closer to The Red Sea.
I ask if I deserved this, she doesn’t answer. I ask if there's something wrong with me, she doesn’t answer. I ask if I am unlovable, she doesn’t answer.
I ask her why she didn’t respond to my last text, she says she was busy.
One day we’re eating ice cream together on a warm summer day, her rum raisin, me elderflower and I ask her what I should do to please her.
She considers the question, humming and haaing on it. Then she tells me, go to the deepest darkest part of the ocean and bring me back one of those funny looking sea creatures.
I ask if she’s being serious and she says she always is.
When i'm dying and we see each other again, she first tells me about all my wrinkles and gray hairs and recommends a guy she knows that could help with that.
Are we going to be together forever now, I ask?
She wrinkles her nose at that and says no, you bring down the vibes.
I want to be consumed. To not be myself anymore and become part of something else. That’s what true love is. I want you to give me new life. Set fire to my soul. I’ve spent my whole life hurting, aching but I know love will fix me. Your love will fix me. Kiss me with those golden lips and pour your sunshine into me. It will fix me. It has to. Everything I touch, I leave with scars. Look what I've done to my body, look at my body and tell me you still love me. Touch the scar on my right knee, caress the mark on my forehead, kiss the old wounds on my achilles heel. Take them from me, I give them willingly. What is my body supposed to do without you, how should I move it without your instruction?
My whole life I have been waiting for you. I am a believer prostrating before the altar of my god, you. Wash away my sins, make me anew. Let me be reborn in your light. Make me into something lovable, make into something worth holding. Unmake me from what I am. You are purity and divinity, all things I am not. When God made us, we were made in your image, but not me. Not me. I am a wretched thing, I am not your creation but I could be. I could be beautiful, I know you could make it so.
I once heard someone ask “Do you love God or are you in love with God?” and yes is my answer. Is there a difference? Not to me.
I love you like something that can’t be loved back. I know that, I know that.
Would you still love me if I were a worm,
Which is to say, would you still love me if I couldn’t take you on walks Which is to say, would you still love me if I couldn’t feed you Which is to say, would you still love me if I didn’t play with you Which is to say, would you still love me if I didn’t kiss your head and pet your fur Which is to say, would you still love me if I didn’t serve you?
If I could provide you nothing, would you still come to me tail wagging Place your head in my lap, lick at my lotioned legs, Whine when I ignore you, chase me when I run from you?
Or would you find someone new, someone who could give you all those things And more. Would it even hurt for you to leave me, or would I be an afterthought? I’d like to think you’d never leave my side, no matter what Man’s best friend and all.
We’ve been together for so long, not us two but humans and canines. When we leave for the stars will you come with us? I’d take you with, I’d take you anywhere I went.
You were made to serve us, but it is us that serve you To a dog, man is God And who would worship a God if they could give no boons, answer no prayers, quell no storms, bless no harvests Which is to say, I don’t deserve your worship
Someone once said that humans are a dog’s whole life while they’re only a chapter to us. What a terribly sad thing to say. You deserve a whole novel
You give me so much and I give nothing in return I weep into your fur and you wait patiently, I injure myself and you try lick the wound to help I lag behind you as you run and you slow and look back waiting for me, I step on your tail and you cry but immediately forgive me, I hold you as you tremble from the thunder that I can do nothing about
I know this is a Dog eat dog world, so I would not feel betrayed If you stopped loving me So I ask again, would you still love me if I were a worm?
Every time I see that scene during the bell episode this is the only thing that my mind can think of. THE PARALLELS.
catholic guilt
a devil in the house of a god
please, please, please, let me, let me, let me, let me get what i want this time
you’re an angel, I’m a dog
Or you’re a dog and I’m your man
You belive me like a god
I destroy you like I am
If you're not making your Christian parents vaguely uncomfortable with your characterization of god in your poetry, are you even doing it right??
GOD
when a ship involves one character being so utterly devoted to the other that its borderline religious????? when the devoted character is written to be seen as a sinner, or damned, or a non believer??? and the other character an angel or god-like???? i simply eat that shit UP how can you not??
Hi hi @phoe-ix here is your gift! I had so much fun with this so I hope you like it :D
It’s a little angsty I know but don’t worry he’s not dead he’ll be fineeeee
I saw a painting called Forgiven by Thomas Blackshear and I thought it would work so well as slimeriana so I decided to redraw it as them for your gift!
Process pictures and the original painting:
HAPPY HOLIDAYS MAJOR!!!!!!!!! I hope you’ve had a great end of 2024 and have a happy new year!!! 🎉
Phoenix if you’d like to have the art without the watermark dm me and I can send it to you! Also lmk if you want to hear me ramble about it cuz I have so many thoughts :3
@misclickduo thank you for running this event it was so much fun yippee!!! <333
this is not faith but it can be if you want it to be
is the rapture or zombies better for an apocalypse?
Father, the angels are crying! They are starving for your affection
wanting to die, i bent over to God as the burning water flushes through my eyes.
uh ohhh religious imagery even tho not really cause crosses aren’t only biblical but whatever
this took me a while LOL i was gonna colour the line art but then i was like nah i don’t want to so here we are
this wasn’t supposed to specifically look like one of his designs from one of the series, but i did have the 1975 mangas and OVAs in mind lol
and yes. i am a coward. i did not draw his boobs. i may have a pair myself, but i am still weak
anyway here’s what i kept on repeating from AWANAs in my head cause religious guilt(I HAVE NOTHING AGAINST PEOPLE WHO ARE RELIGIOUS. as long as you respect my opinions, i will respect yours. unless if you’re like killing ppl or smth idk)
i pledge allegiance to the Bible, God’s holy word. i will make it a lamp unto my feet, and a light unto my path. i will hide its words in my heart, so that i might not sin against God.
no i did not give him as many wings as he has. to be honest i just couldn’t bring myself to😭i feel so disrespectful to the bible about it so that’s how i’m justifying it to myself
if you wanna yell at me about how the blood splatters are unrealistic, dm me(THIS IS A TRAP I WILL MAKE YOU TALK ABOUT DEVILMAN WITH ME)
k bye bye
Bruh. Don't hide that shit that's poetic as hell
love as religion; am i doomed? / on aromanticism
all highlighted sections from ‘aromanticism’ by moses sumney - the album notes // other excerpts in order: ‘doomed’ - moses sumney / quote by Naïmah Janse / earthlings - sayaka murata / ‘sun bleached flies’ - ethel cain / unknown / ‘doomed’ - final verse
That's my little guy! That's my horribly traumatized little archivist!
Look at him! My guy!
Moodboard of Benito Ranha for @filazuli !! This one was so fun to make. Like, way too fun. :3
i am sure that hell must be cold
one day at a time, kids. i love you and i'm rooting for you. if you have religious trauma, i'm so sorry that Christ was misrepresented. you were in a "religious" home or enviornment. not a Christian home or environment
“Stay close to anything that makes you glad you are alive.”
— Hafiz
7/3/23
Representation of a long standing disbelief, I denounce the things which strike me in ways unjust and impure, irreverent and disdainful, I declare I have no faith in a beast like that. The claws tear at my skin, and my lovers, and my friends, those same very things I know will be taken, by what hands, I have yet to know. The day always come