Cotl Ewen - Blog Posts

Heh good thing I'm not a follower but more of an observer. But to say more would spoil future plans 😈

How would ewen react if a follower (me for example XD) ask them for a kiss ?

So... petition to get an even pinup calendar?

Gris Swimsuit, Hollow Hip Dress, String Jumpsuit, Keyhole Cat Lingerie, Choker Snapper, Slingkini, etc etc etc

Maybe...? Guess not

I stopped drawing an actually nsfw comic and a story comic to draw this. that is how strong the urge to draw pin ups is in me. plus its just nice having a chubbier character after a while.

It turned out super cute either way. reminder that ewen shears their wool completely and makes it into an outfits... any outfit they want <3

patrons got this early along with sketches and helped me decide on oufits

Is lamb a boy or a girl? Just wanna know

they are a god

Now a brother can't help but be curious to what draws you into such dynamics of hatred, chaos and self-destruction. 🤔

Definitely wanna hear about that from someone who loves it.

Sorry to hear about the troubles with your move. Hopefully it will only pick up in a positive light from here.

But I am curious, which couple in fiction inspire you the most?

You know I thought about this an I asked my hubby while we're waiting for the movers and we both have no freaking idea lol.

I've had previous ships but it's mostly what elements attracted me to that ship and then half the time I just make it my own thing. I have elements I like.

hatemance

immortals/time loop with two people stuck together/only one to understand each other

destruction/harm/cannibalism as a form of love

Unhealthy attachment/fear of loss

Sex being less intimate than chaste forms of affection

Usually they want to kill each other/want the other to kill them

But I can't really think of the sources of that specifically besides my own issues and a love of horror/monsters in general

Alright, since Madam Mel has goated me into revealing my extremely amateurish thoughts, here goes.

I've had my suspicions on how Narinder was able to get a hold of the Last Lamb, and how he was even able to bring it back to life in the first place. It comes with too many plotholes that, thankfully the game leaves open to interpretation so here are my theories and One I think Mrs @melled42 is gunning for.

The first Theory being that Shamura sent the last Lamb to Narinder either intentionally as a show to break Narinder's dream of returning and to accept his fate as being bound to Hell's limbo, or unintentionally as a last way to give Narinder a chance to free himself and repent for his actions of slaughtering unwillingly innocents and to punish himself for the actions he committed against his most favorite sibling. There are words Shamura uses that alludes to the idea that he may have purposely given Narinder the Lamb, the same way he gave Narinder Aym and Ba'al, probably due to how damaged his mind was and how he drifts in and out because of his brain damage. I can go more into this theory because its a personal one of mine and part of my headcanon

However, I believe Melled42 is going for my second theory and one I hope isn't the case (Game-Canonwise) but..... Narinder may have killed the Lamb himself, directly in order to get direct control of the creature's life, to will it for his own purpose. I came to this conclusion because Narinder's ultimate goal was to control Life AND Death, and he never fully achieved the goal, because his siblings stopped him before he could break such a fundamental law of nature. Death is only supposed to go 1 way, so for Narinder to even have the power to perverse such a Primordial Law means he had to have had a direct connection and influence over Lamb (in this case Ewen's) death, to control their aspect of Life and thus, create a creature not bound by the Laws and Limitations Narinder actively sought to break.

All this is to say, the theory is that Narinder intentionally killed Ewen himself to give him life that bounds Ewen to Narinder through the power of the Red Crown. This would explain why Lamb can detach its head and still remain alive and aware, retain all their powers and abilities without aging physically, while also exhibiting God-Like effects such as the black blood or ichor if you will, that leaks from a God's wounds. Lamb wasn't killed by the Headsmen, he was killed somehow stealthily through an act by Narinder himself.

Its extremely twisted, yet right up Narinder's alley. I'm against it personally but fuck it would fit if this is what Melled42 is going for. That the twisted mentality the two of them tend to feed into one another, the act that started all of this, was Narinder killing Lamb to claim their life and soul for himself, before his siblings could get the job done and ruin his plans. I like this, and HATE it because it creates a full circle moment that only adds to the selfish depravity of their natures as a whole, that due to the solitary existence both were forced to endure, the empty, meaningless deaths they were both part of and directly influenced with their actions, connects them both on an extremely primal level where only they and they alone, can understand stand each other completely.

I wanted to keep this grenade tucked away but Madam Mel asked so.... here it is. If I'm wrong, I fully accept it because even I see the cracks in my theory but damnit..... brain is going wild with ideas.

An explanation for the wound on Ewen's, my lamb's neck. I've had this headcannon since first seeing the bishops but it kind of took a life of its own

When you're a power hungry controlling monster but they're way too into it, even for you

patreons got this early

TL:DR - Fox is right and Ewen/Narinder will have to make a tough decision very soon

Alright gonna drop this here but don't got too much to add because someone else beat me to it and was so on point, I'm annoyed my lack of sleep made me slow on the follow-up.

But the one thing I'll add, at least from my perspective is this; I think the Fox is correct and Lamb fears this fact of sentient nature. In truth, their relationship with Narinder is extremely one-sided, especially from their point of view. Its warranted of course, considering what Ewen was forced to become, all in order to survive. Their concept of romance and a relationship is so warped and skewed that its no wonder they believe Affection Control = Love and Devotion.

The same could be said for Narinder because, all things considered, the guy is a God. His relationship with mortals isn't the same as someone of his own kind, on his own level so his relationship with Lamb is nearly as flawed in its own right. Considering he has something of a personal connection with Forneus, Aym and Ba'al, its safe to assume to some degree, he aware of what it means and how it feels to develop an emotional attachment. It seems that maturity is coming through his relationship with Lamb who is helping him return back to that mentality he had probably before his 1,000 year-long isolation that probably drove him to a deeper level of insanity before his siblings bound him.

Now cutting all this rambling aside, I say the Fox is right in that Ewen's relationship is one-sided because they're only acting in self-interest and fulfilling their own desires at the moment. They keep Narinder under their thumb and refuse to give him the truest opportunity to leave or choose between Power or Connection. By keeping the crown, they know they're stronger than Narinder and can force him to their will, whenever they want. They have all the control in the relationship, but that of course is not a relationship of love or devotion, and the Fox points this out, much to Ewen's dismay and fear.

I think (my belief of course), if Ewen wants to truly know if they are loved, they're going to have to offer Narinder a truly honest decision and follow through with it 100% no matter the outcome, with absolutely no expectations or demands. They need to willing put themselves in a completely vulnerable state and offer Narinder the Red Crown to see if Narinder will choose Power or Love and no matter what he picks, they have to abide by that decision absolutely. In many ways, humility and faith would be the ultimate test of their growth and connection as an Ascended Mortal and a Fallen God

Eh but this is me just rambling and if you think this is bad, should have seen the 9 page essay I wrote and was trying to trim down. >_> I got issues.... lots and lots of issues... but this is damn good shit from @melled42 and I've been foaming at the mouth, waiting for updates like a kid watching Saturday Morning Cartoons!

COTL narilamb comic

Changes part 1, part 2 tomorrow

(all along with wips and stuff a week early on patreon)

Looks like the lamb has a fox friend. we're reaching the last 3rd of these comics, lets gooooo

I would say it definitely it should be metaphorical. The idea would set it apart from, but would still serve as a good parallel for the core universe. The idea that Narinder has his power and social influence limited/controlled by his other siblings through magic would be ideal and to bypass this limitation, he shares his power with Lamb who has no true allegiance to anyone but themselves.

As for the siblings, I'd offer an idea but please, do not let me take or taint your creative process and influence, just tossing my two cents into the mix;

But instead of Lamb needing to outright kill the other siblings, possibly because they're either too stronger or doing so 1 at a time would result in all the other regions within their empire to instantly turn against Narinder and foil the plan, what if Narinder simply wants to usurp each of them by having each of them defeated and humiliated publicly at their own area of expertise, causing their Nobles, Followers and Subjects to lose faith in them and change their allegiance, thus removing their power of authority?

A test of Foresight for Leshy, one that involves solving puzzles or moving through a maze filled with traps and illusions. A test of Strength for Heket, proving their endurance by surviving a harsh ordeal like carrying a bolder to a location under a certain time. A test of Knowledge for Kallamar, something that challenges the Lamb's expertise in biology, chemistry or trivia. And a test of Skill for Shamura, defeating a series of varying combatants leading up to the head honcho himself.

Then finally when Narinder thinks its their time to shine, Lamb challenges them as well for their title and throne in a test of Courage that puts their lives on the line against one another (Can decided if he dies or not).

But anyways, those my late night thoughts. Take them as you shall with the smallest grains of salt you can muster lol

wait does narinder still get chained up in your royal au? asking bc the kisses keep the lamb from going crazy and if they didn't see him because he's locked up 😥

Im still not sure on what to do with his and his siblings backstory yet and wheter if the chained up thing should be a methoporical or a literal one

Hurts so damn good! Haven't seen an ending for the Narilamb pairing that hit this hard since @circuscountdowns's 2-part image about it. It deserves a lot more views and attention. Such a solemn and strong way to end the story of two immortal beings who've spent eons together, watching the very changing rise and fall of countless eras.

For me, I just imagined them being alive so long and together for so long, they practically become forces of nature and existence itself, ascending to higher beings and even becoming outer entities that learn how to create, shape and balance aspects of existence itself. But this, i love this a lot. 10 Freaking Stars. Needs more love.

Aftermaths

I made this comic as part of a class assignment, and I think it turned out really good! The original text came from a scrapped AU outline I wrote a while ago, but I loved this bit so much I decided to make a comic based on it. The basic background info for this story is fairly simple: the Lamb renounced the Red Crown. Them and Narinder are the last remaining immortals.

I might make a prequel comic to this, but I'm not sure. I think I'll call it After the End AU if that's the case.

(also just because I'm a bit paranoid about stuff like this: disclaimer that the hands on page 2 were traced, but with my own image)

Bishop Weapons

To anyone who reads this, I am curious of your opinion. In terms of signature weapons, Lamb is often assoicated with a short board sword while Narinder is given a Scythe to fit his "Death" title. But what about the other Bishops. While reduced to moral forms, what weapons do you think would become their signature in a combat situation?

Nah... Melled42's fan child design is top-tier. Got me Damm near dry-heaving 😤❤️‍🔥

doodled my narilamb kid bell because i wanted to get her wool pattern down like her lamb parent.