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so so very tired. i can't take being tired anymore... so tired of being disabled because being disabled makes me tired. i am exhausted and i wish someone else could front to get the load off of me.

i will absolutely grab one of the random nameless, bodyless fragments that are probably in my system and morph it into someone who can help me. but like i've done that before, i've created parts. they haven't fronted after their creation and it fucking sucks

please i just want someone equipped to help me with this to front. why can't i push through this constant neverending lethargy and exhaustion. i can probably almost fall asleep standing up right now, and yet i have to help mom clean up the room we share with her (because our bum ass housemates have; a, taken my room and the living room and b; don't help with anything and pretend everything is fine because they give us money for rent sometimes.)

"endos make a mockery of REAL systems" "ace people make a mockery of REAL queer people" "nonbinary people make a mockery of REAL trans people" "self-diagnosed people make a mockery of REAL disabled people" "bisexuals make a mockery of REAL gay people" "non-dysphoric trans people make a mockery of REAL trans people" "trans lesbians make a mockery of REAL lesbians"

arent you tired? arent you tired? arent you tired?

hey pro-endo plurals, stop thinking about hate posts for a sec and let’s do a brain exercise. think about. a seagull.

yeah :)

I LUV U XIOMARA!!!!!!!!!!!!

This was for an art trade but im also like rlly proud of it so yah..... :) thakb you neil for the killua and gon art....♡♡♡♡hear t ♡ ♡ ♡

oogh. life update + brief system ramblings

i can't believe i'm starting at an alternative school tomorrow! like, holy shit. it's a new environment, for sure — it got me immensely overwhelmed to the point where i started crying. but they have therapy dogs there, a short schedule (by 2 hours, but also i don't move rooms at all during the day), and i won't be able to even bring my phone or disposable vapes onto the campus. they can tell if i do with the metal detector placed in the entrance. but this is way better for me, even if i can't smoke in the bathrooms and spam my mom's number when i get stressed. i have a million problems with public school and how it works, so i guess this is a welcome change. my mom even raised the idea of a hybrid schedule — me being home on wednesdays specifically — if i get too stressed with being in a different school. does anyone have, like. tips for accepting being newly enrolled in an american alternative school? specifying american because i don't really know if they're the same everywhere else. i don't know what my new classes would be, and if they're even the same.

i just know that if i don't go for 75% of the remaining days in the semester, i'll be automatically enrolled back in my normal high school. but i really want to give this alternative schooling thing a try. it might give me a chance to graduate

— in other news... we have a shadow milk cookie fictive (who i will be calling milk for simplicity). yeah. i swear to god he is in love with my boyfriend's pure vanilla introject, who i'll just call by aer nickname, sol — sol's pronouns are he/ae/shy, by the way. i swear to GOD milk is down bad for him. and i almost feel bad 😭 i feel like i'm making milk do this? but i'm not. bro is doing it out of his own volition. milk KNOWS of the shadowvanilla ships. he is probably a shipper himself and just doesn't want to admit it. i just feel almost guilty that poor sol is just seeing this strangely canon-compliant (or at least extremely similar to canon personality) shadow milk take a liking to ae after, in aer source memories, tormenting him. however my boyfriend told me that shy is doing his best to be impartial about it, and i commend ae for it. good job. clap clap clap clap also shadow milk fuck you. you're probably going to pop back into front or at least co-con for a brief few seconds to say some random jester shit to me like Oh My God i Get It you're a faggot and you won't admit it. shut up faggot.

This disability pride month can we be mad that Israel has made it so more than ten children a day lose a limb in Gaza? Can we be mad that there isn't a single fully functioning general hospital in Gaza, thanks to the Israeli army's bombings? Can we be mad that there are disabled people in Palestine who don't have access to the care they need? Can we be mad that there are disabled people in Gaza that are dying due to the lack of medicine and doctors? Can we be mad that Israel tried to give Palestine near expired COVID vaccines and then acted like they did something? Can we be mad?!

question why the fuck does nobody ever headcanon madeleine cookie as a trans woman. or even transfem. that is a transfem FAGGOT if i've ever seen one.

sincerely, someone who has barely ever been in the cookie run fandom since i fell out in 2021. i've always been a transfem madeleine truther because that is a beautiful GORGEOUS npd-having herbo

ooooooooooookay i think im objectum. well shit

i mean old computers and inflatable pool toys are hot just saying.

if i bit into one of those brightly colored inflatable pool toys i think it would taste like a gusher (sorry pool toy)

also just in case im a minor if youre an 18+ account. be normal

anti-endos are weird as hell i swear. they'll take any chance to just like.. fakeclaim anyone. especially if they frequent fakedisordercringe or systemscringe. honestly it's kinda laughable. they think anyone who supports endogenics is automatically one themself, when that shit isn't true (take my boyfriend for instance, who is traumagenic and yet supports me wholeheartedly)

Days without an anti-endo thinking this blog is owned by an endogenic system and fakeclaiming: 0

Piece I made for @doctorassistedzine 🔴🔵