I'm Done.

I CHOKED ON MY LUNCH LMAO

cordelia's rose coloured glasses still being FIRMLY in place after all this is astonishing.

like girl you think the hardcore alcoholic is just gonna quit cold turkey and be all bright eyed and bushy tailed? you're smarter than this cordelia please 😭

god cassie is really fucking destroying me with james' internal monologues

i used to separate them distinctly in my mind but this reread is making me kind of unable to do that..

i gotta clarify first that i think sebastian needs to be punished for what he did. i don't think any of what i'm about to say absolves him of anything he's done.

that being said, i think sebastian was so tragically doomed by the narrative that he never had a choice but to make the choices he did. he never had a chance to be anything else because of valentine and jocelyn (although jocelyn to a far lesser extent than valentine). every step of his existence from conception to death is stripped of agency. every choice he makes is done in the shadows of valentine stripping away his humanity and mercilessly abusing him until he's a perfect weapon. and then the bastard has the nerve to be ashamed of what he created.

i just wish sebastian had gotten a fucking chance to be anything other than jocelyn's shame and valentine's weapon.

sebastian morgenstern is actually the best villain ever because he makes me a devastating combination of sad and angry

my money is firmly on christopher dying in this book (DO NOT SPOIL ME) but i'm so very scared for matthew.

he's just spiraling and spiraling and i'm so scared he'll have a bad ending.

city of ashes doesn't have a bad track

the clace content???

YES.

jace herondale better square up cause i want his girl bad and i bite

"weiner! it's a weiner!" "i assure you it's not" i love you todoroki

Why are we the same person??

Literally the same bio too-

bloodmarked

"no other merlin can protect you like I can because no other merlin feels about you the way I do"

oathbound

"i don't need her protection."

"you used to need mine"

went into the discord talking about not understanding why everyone was so devastated by this book at chapter 20.

i was immediately and violently checked.